My Fear

Why is life so confusing... Our parents and teachers tell us we can be anything we want to be. For me, I love my family dearly and they love me but I'm afraid that in the path I plan to follow I'll be alone. My Dad wants the best for me (so does my Mom but she has the pacients of a Saint, I mean she has put with my stubborn rebelion, my fathers temperment (not abusive in any way, this is said for the people whom like to "embellish" stories to an extreme), and my brothers a lot like my father, a short fuse and mood swings. I appear to be a heartless, ungrateful son (I'm sure), sometimes. I want to teach. With this they can follow and support me, but I've wanted to teach since I was in kindergarden. So it's not to difficult to swallow. But last year I fell in love with theatre and for me there is no looking back. I started the year doing everything that I had wanted to do the entire time that I was in high school. Two of those classes were stagecraft and Theatre I. The next thing I know I'm taking theatre I and IV and stagecraft. Then second semester I join mixed choir. My priorities change almost instantaniously, I begin to live and breathe theatre and I never looked back, except to say "I wish that I had joined sooner." My parents think that I need a back up plan, in case there arn't any theatre positions available or incase they phase theatre out of schools. But I felt like I was meant to teach in kindergarden, and I just knew that this was what I wanted to teach. I had been struggling on deciding on a subject area and where I fit. Theatre fits me and it fits perfectly. I want to say that God led me to find these. I prayed and he answered. But I will not put that upon him for the possibility that I might be wrong. But I feel that he is working in me, guiding me. I've made mistakes, many and daily. I'm trying to improve, but who knows? My parent's know this is my intent but their not thrilled. I know what I want, I know that I feel like I'm being led here, but am I following the proper path?